Has it really been almost 3 months since I’ve posted an update? Let see… where to start… How about I go read my last few posts and see what I was up too… Be back in a jippy……….
Ahh ok… so the last real post was my 10 steps to self-care… So, let’s start there shall we.
Since August 22nd I have still be engaged in quite a bit of self-care. I went camping in September for 2 days, I still practiced my guitar and I spent time with friends. I even went back to the gym and started eating healthy.
I want to say that I am on a true self-care journey and I have taken the necessary steps to ensure that I stay healthy not only physically but mentally too. Since going back to the gym on the 18th of September, I have lost 12 lbs., my Anxiety has been extremely manageable and the depression has really stayed at bay.
It was actually quite random that I started to go back to the gym and give it my all. I remember having a session with my Therapist, actually talking about Self-care and that I have been doing pretty good with it except I really wanted to get back into a gym routine which would then lead to a healthier lifestyle. Of course, her being her, she challenged me. I cannot back down from a challenge, however by the next time I had a session… I simply said Nope, life got in the way and I couldn’t commit to this gym routine. No sooner did I say that, did I ever feel so guilty. not just with the fact I didn’t commit, but I just didn’t go it. I remember that weekend I turned to K and said. We are going back to the gym on Monday… no excuses! We will do this. Sure, enough Monday came around and we did it. First gym session of many.
3 weeks later I had another session with my therapist. She was simply amazed by the progress, I remember her saying that I sounded/looked like a completely different person. Like I was able to finally feel and see clarity.
Fast forward to last week, I had my final session. Even my therapist was ok with it. She didn’t push, she didn’t caution. she simply said Go for it, you have the tools you need to test life out for a while.
So here I am, its November 12th I am staying up a bit later than my normal Sunday-Thursday Bedtime routine of 9pm and up at 5:15am… I have taken a 5-day long weekend and I am actually looking forward to getting back to work.
I do want to touch on something I have mentioned… Clarity, for once I am able to think and feel life so much clearer. I can understand when I am feeling anxious and I can address it before it blows out of portion. I am able to think clearer on my actions towards life and I find myself more connected to everything around me. Crazy as it seems… but I think this time I actually got it.
Well, this post was longer than I expected and I am sure I have left out a lot of amazing things… But that will give me more things to post and reflect on
The Anxious Mind